long talk and I found out that she had suspected something like this for quite a while but was afraid to say anything. She said she knew because her clothes wouldn't be in the same place she left them. She also thought that this had something to do with homosexuality as she was just as uninformed as I was and didn't understand it.

It was about this time that I found out about TVism and I tried to explain it to her as best I could and she became very understanding about it. She gave me her permission to continue as long as she didn't have to see it and I made sure that no one else found out.

Every so often we would have a talk about where all this was going and as I didn't have a simple answer or anything to fight back with, we would agree that I should stop, if for no other reason than that she was afraid that the children would see me. She was worried about what this might do to their future. I have stopped a few times and put all my feminine clothes away and out of sight but this would last for only a week or so. I found that I would get extremely nervous. During one of these times I had a mild breakdown and had to go to the hospital. Since then she has agreed to let me dress up when she was home and now I am completely relaxed. During these purge periods I wished I had had someone to talk to that had this interest so that it could have been explained more fully to both of us to help us both through these rough times. My wife still doesn't care for it but now that she understands it a little she will tolerate it as long as I keep it in the house as she knows how much it means to me.

She is in constant fear of someone finding out and what this would do to the children. I am sure that the boys have some kind of idea that something is going on from some of the remarks she has made in their presence. Also our home has only four rooms so how much can you hide in this small area. I am very careful that they don't see it but they do see the clothes around the house and

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